He did hurt my feelings again. He made me cry. He thinks that Princess Gianne is not his. He kept on pushing me away again. He wants his interest to uphold and equality is always his reason. He thinks that something happened to me and to the other guy! But there was none! it was so unfair making false stories about me! so what if that guy cares for me? Atleast, he still doesn't have the nerve to hurt me. I am not comparing Dada and the other guy! I swear, the other guy looks horrible and I realized I don't like him as much as I love Dada.

He tells me that he didn't love other girls nor like other girls neither ways court another girl. He still have the guts to tell me about this even he left me for another girl.

I want to let go as much as possible. I want to go on with my life without him. I am just waiting for the best time. And Graduation is the best time. I have a month to go to prepare my self. I will let him go as I promised to my self. I will let him be. I will forget the whole 5 years and move on to my own life. I will just bring our good memories together. I will not let others know about it because they'll think that we will be okay.

I always think of the future for us. He wants me to settle on the present and lets me stop thinking about it. He gives his own reasons about money and about life; If you were to listen to him you will think of non-sense. I seldom think of it but I should not argue with him because I have to understand even he is wrong. That is what they call equality. I really have to keep my mouth shut in order for us to understand each other but he thinks if I won't argue he is already correct and I am always wrong!

Princess Gianne is his baby girl. Why would he think twice of having it? It was a long time already since I had another guy. And that was the time he broke up with me. Then he thinks that I keep on communicating to that guy?!! Assho**! For 5 years, I never cheated on him. I can never call it as cheating because he left me and I have nothing else to do but to make myself happy. It was more than 3 months of waiting. Who would expect that he will come to take me back!

It is a year since I wrote. It made me depressed without him.